Self Awareness Blog post
Hello blog.
After the discussion tutorial on self-awareness, I am able to understand myself much better than before. Using the various methodology presented to us during the tutorial, I am able to access and gauge my self-esteem / awareness with my peers as well as learn of ways to boost them.
Self-awareness and self-esteem plays an enormous part in our daily lives without us knowing it.
Some fine examples are questioning yourself regarding your looks , “Does this pair of sneakers go well with my jeans?” or “Am I saying the correct things?” .
These are some of the questions you might stumble upon quite frequently on a typical day.
The tutorial has also made known to me the importance as well as the existence of self-esteem and self-awareness in our lives.
Self-esteem and Self-awareness are indeed very important factors in enhancing relationships and developing interaction with people around us.
The tutorial worksheet “celebrating me” allowed me understand myself better. Never has it passed my mind that I am almost never depressed until I was asked to do the worksheet. As I do the worksheet, I’ll try to remember and think of various instances where I was depressed and needless to say , I couldn’t think of any! This is one example out of many other qualities presented to me.
As we move on to complete the reflections page. Listing a list of objectives whereby I scored 3 and questioning myself why they are important to me. Gave me a much clearer view of my priorities, I then know why or how are the qualities important to me.
Part (iii) of the worksheet.
List of adjectives that I scored 0 in , Write down the ones I would like to improve and how am I going to develop them
Ah HA!,
I found this extremely useful, not only does it allow me to reflect on why I have scored pathetically low for the particular qualities, I am also allowed to think further and formulate ways that I can improve on it. This acts as a check list of do’s and don’ts on how to further improve myself.
IE. I am not physically fit. After some thinking, I realized that I hardly ever exercise. Only then I realized that I must make it a point to exercise at least twice a week. From there, I reshuffled my daily planner and included some simple exercises I could do.YAY
In ”Understanding self-esteem” (in the worksheet)
I was able to evaluate my self-esteem,
And in comparison to my friends I would say, I have a rather high self-esteem (which I suppose is a good thing after checking out the definition of *self-esteem)
I scored a total of 17 false and 1 true.
The larger number of false equates to a higher self-esteem
There are few factors affecting my self-esteem and self-image.
The most important factor is no doubt my peers and friends. It is their opinions that matters the most, often through words they can either boost my confidence or damage it. (Very very high damage).
Peers who get jealous might use strong words to deter you from trying again or stop you from doing what you are good at. Usually I would disregard the negative comments, because the main reason to why I’m doing what I’m doing is because I enjoy it. Life is about enjoying isn’t it? Peers they don’t last long. If they were friends, they would encourage you instead of deter you from doing what you enjoy to do.
Also looking the part among peers plays an important part, you want to look like the rest so that you can fit it. You think in the sense that you think of what others might feel about you instead of what you might feel about it. Hence to deal with this rather annoying factor, I would say *screw you guys I’m going home* Heck that. Nowadays, everyone is promoting individuality and apparently the word seems to be agreeing with it but I observed NATO(no action talk only). Why be like everyone else, dress different. Be outstanding only then will you be noticed.
In summary , To deal with peer pressure, I’ll use my strong will power to tell myself what is right and wrong.
Last Important factor is no doubt. The MEDIA, it is a form of propaganda. Broadcasting messages of what is right and what is not right. They tell us youths what to wear and how we should act like.
Turning us into little clones of similar fashion sense, definition of what is cool and hip. To deal with this *negative influence I would use my ever strong mentality and apply the individuality act. Where I will and I can be myself. I will think deeper and try to understand what do I stand to gain if I were to follow suit.
In 5 years time, I WILL have a much better self-esteem. I will be confident in what I do but I will also make well informed decisions. I will be able to commit to what I do better. My priorities will undergo some major reshuffling. I will be able to show empathy.
In 5 years time, People Will (I want) remembers me as someone with crazy ideas, random. A Confident person, as well as a confidence instilling friend. ” Can do, will do…” Friend .Also someone who lives by the motto “try not once , not twice .. but try it till you nail it” .
Thanks. That would be the end of my very long yet super humble blog post.
Ng Sheng Nian (T14)
